Wanderlust

Wanderlust has been described as a need, a want to travel, to see the world..

This is exactly how I feel.. no other word can describe it..

There is a hunger in me, a hungry to travel, a hungry to know my surroundings and discover new lands.

There is so much out there in the world and I feel as if I only know a portion of it. I know people who have been all over the world and I am so envious of them. I want to be one of those people, one of those people who have touched all the corners of the earth, one of those people who have experienced all cultures, who have felt foriegn lands slip through my fingers and under my feet.

I want to know what Germany is like, I want to ski the Alps.. I want to see a gazelle run across an african plain... I want to see a koala bear in a tree in Australia.. I want to experience the heat that can only come from Brazil.. I want to leave a part of myself in all 50 states of the US.. I want to travel up to Canada and experience real maple syrup.. 

I wonder if I will ever make it.. if I will ever be able to satisfy that hunger.. to see all that the world has to offer.. if I will ever truly be happy if I never make it that far.

I feel like for so long I have been trapped in my own little slice of the world... my itty bitty town.. in my itty bitty county... I feel like there is so much more out there and I am terrified that this is all there is for me.. 

Right now I am sitting in a motor home on my way to Florida.. to Disney World.. This is probably the 10th or 11th time I’ve been there my whole life and while it’s always fun.. it’s always the same route.. always the same stops along the way.. I am ready for something new.. I am ready to experience new things... and while I love my family.. I am ready to go out on my own and travel. 

I am considering doing a mission trip with my Church... the only problem is.. my school schedule and my work schedule. I feel like God is calling me to do this though.. to help his people and to also satisfy a need in myself. I am seriously going to look into it and see what I can do. I would love to do something like that and will definitely be looking into it. 

Sitting at the Coffee Shack

I can honestly say I have never just sat at a place to use their internet (although I did get a wrap and a smoothie and omg they were delicious).. I'm not usually one to just hang out and people watch.. this is a new experience for me but seeing as I don't have internet at home anymore (financial issues at the moment) this was the only option I had for my online classes.

I don't know why I have never done this before. I enjoy it. I live at the chance of meeting new people and let me tell you, the barista (o?) is a pretty cute dude. I could get use to this lol.

I have managed to get more work done in the past hour and a half than I would ever be able to at home and I have gotten a bit of social feeling in with it.

Anyway.. onward.. lol

So I filed for divorce 3 weeks ago and I don't know if C has gotten served yet or not.. last I heard (which was about a week ago) he hadn't and it's really beginning to piss me off.. because after he gets served he still have another 30 days to answer.. which means it could be another month or more before I get the final on my divorce. I am just so ready for this whole thing to be over..

I haven't talked to him.. haven't email, text or anything. I have no contact with him and I can honestly say I couldn't be happier about that.

I would say I haven't seen him, well I haven't on my own accord, but he drove by my house the other day and when he saw that I was leaving he turned around on his route just so he could ride by me again.. I often wonder if I will ever be able to officially get rid of him.. it seems that the further I try to get from him he somehow pops back in. But I have learned my lesson and just looked forward and didn't acknowledge him in any way as I'm sure he wanted me to. Kaity is no longer the weak girl that she had been. And if he knows what is good for him he would stay away.. I still have that urge just to punch him in his face and I will if the opportunity presents it's self.

So here I am starting my second week of school and seriously I love it. I have so much going on though it's not often I get a free chance to just do something for myself (as I am right now.. sipping on my smoothie.. blogging, and checking out hot dude behind the bar =P)  I have barely even checked Facebook since last Wednesday and I have maybe updated my status like 4 times since then which is strange, as most you know that I'm friends with on FB.

I can't say I really miss it at the moment. I actually wish some people would just leave me alone. There is this one guy that is an old friend from high school that has been on my ass about dating since me and C split up and I have made it clear numerous times that I am not interested at all in him. He doesn't get the subtle hints... or the not so vague "Dude I'm not interested in you like that!" comments either. He pissed me off today by talking about how I'm always ducking him and saying I have things to do when I am probably just as home not doing anything... yeah that's totally it..

Despite the 19 hrs a week I spend at school... and the 46 hours I am still trying to manage at work.. it's totally that I'd rather sit at home alone than talk to you.. totally.. actually it's cause I'm crazy super busy and I don't have time for anything other than Work and School and when I do I am usually asleep trying to catch up on the exhaustion that has already started with just the 4th day at school. Last night I went to bed at 8:30... Last time I went to bed at 8:30 I was probably 5. But by the time I finish all my duties for everything I have to do I am so tired and since I don't have a TV to fall asleep in front of at the moment (bundled with internet) than I literally just go to bed.
A little more than a week and I'll be on my way to FL! I can't freaking wait to see all the princesses and Mickey! lol I swear I'm really like 6 inside.. that is one of the main reasons that I will be an awesome kindergarten teacher :) Every girl in the family (there are a lot of us with the SILs and the Nieces... ) have been assigned a different princess.. I got Ariel!! Which excites me so much cause I already have red hair and she was always my absolute favorite.. I mean come on.. She lives as the beach and she is a freaking mermaid.. I remember praying God would turn me into a mermaid when I was little and every chance I got (read: everyday at the pool) I would pretend to be a mermaid and would only swim with my legs together in a fin fashion.. lol I have a Ariel shirt.. purple pants, and green toenails to wear to our dinner with the princesses.. yeah I'm going full garb Little Mermaid.. trust me there will be pictures lol.

Well I've rambled off enough for the time being.. I need to get home to let the dogs out and before it gets too dark as I have forgotten to leave my porch light on and every time I forget to do that I seem to get attacked by frogs... ick.. they freak me out...

First day of the semester

Yesterday was the first day of the semester and I loved it. I'm such a nerd when it comes to school and although last semester that I went I failed all my classes (due to attendance) I am determined to pass all my classes this semester with an A. Last semester I just wasn't dedicated. I didn't care.. it was during a time that I thought me and C might work things out.. when he was playing around with me but we all know how that went and I'm pissed that I let him manipulate me enough to think what I was doing for my education wasn't as important as him.

This semester will be different. I will not let anyone come between me and my education. If I do by chance meet someone they will have to understand my future comes first.

I have 19 credit hours this semester.. that is more than an average full time student.. add on work and I'm crazy lol. But I have to catch back up. I'm determined to be at ECU in 2 semesters. I will do this.

Last night's therapy...

Was a real eye-opener..

We actually didn't talk much about C expect for the fact that I had a dream about him the previous night that had left me in a funk and we deciphered what the dream meant..

In fact we focused on S.. She could tell that I really liked him.. which freaked me out a bit.. am I that transparent? We discussed how I could talk to him, to see how he feels about me. I haven't talked to him in a couple weeks. We discussed why that could be.. (Him giving me space, him being busy with his job because I'm sure it's busier in the summer for him, him possible being freaked out by the fact I'm getting a divorce that could stem from emotions from his own parents divorce..) obviously he wants me to keep in contact with him though since he sent me a text with his new phone number.. if he didn't want to talk to me why would he do that?

I think I'm going to give it a few more weeks.. to let the papers finalize, to let everything be officially done with me and C and then send S a text to the affect of  "Sooo.. my divorce was finalized today and I'm thinking about going out for a few drinks to celebrate... care to join me?"

Maybe that will get his attention that me and C are completely done.. that I have nothing to do with him anymore and that I am ready to move on.. the few weeks that we were "seeing" each other S seemed to be into me.. he acted like he liked being with me and that there was potential and all that changed when I told him about my divorce..

I guess we will see..

I just can't get him off my mind.. I know if it's meant to be it will be but still...

Hump Day Hotties

It's that day again.. it's hump day!

This week we will continue on with the Olympic hotties and since I am no longer posting these on TTCAL I figured I would not only post more than three but also give you some info (If I have it) for these hotties!

Nathan Ghar-jun Adrian is an American swimmer and three-time Olympic gold medalist who currently holds the American record in the 50 and 100-yard freestyle events. He is 23 years old. Weighs in at 225 and is 6'4" (Definitely my kind of man!!!)

James Magnussen is an Australian swimmer (Apparently I have a thing for swimmers..). He is the current 100-metre freestyle world champion. He is 21 years old (why are there no 21 year olds around here this hot!??!) weighs in at 198 and is 6'5".

Arthur Zanetti is a Brazilian artistic gymnast. Zanetti won the gold medal on Rings exercise at the 2012 Summer Olympics in London. He is 22 years old. 5'1 and 135lbs... I'd totally date this little guy.. look at him.. sure I'd tower over him but whatever! lol

Philip "Phil" Peter Dalhausser is an American professional beach volleyball player. He and his playing partner, Todd Rogers, are the 2007 AVP Tour champions and the reigning FIVB world champions. He is 32 years old. Weighs in at 200lbs and is 6'9'!! Makes me feel like a shorty! lol

Florent Manaudou is a French swimmer (again with the swimmers) who specializes in butterfly and freestyle events. He is the Olympic champion of the 50-meter freestyle at the 2012 London Olympics in London. He is 21 years old (almost a year exactly to the day younger than me) weighs 220lbs and is 6'6"

Jonathan Alan Horton is an American gymnast. He is the 2008 Olympic silver medalist on high bar, 2010 Worlds all-around bronze medalist and a two-time U.S. National All-Around Champion. He is a 17-time medalist at the U.S. National Championships. He is 26 years old and 5'2".

Adam Joseph van Koeverden is a Canadian sprint kayaker. He is 30 years old 6ft tall and 188lbs. He won silver in this year's Olympics!

Park Tae-hwan is a South Korean swimmer. He is a member of the South Korean national swimming team, based in Taereung, Seoul. He won a gold medal in the 400 meter freestyle and a silver in the 200 meter freestyle events at the 2008 Summer Olympics. He is 22 years old, 6ft tall and 168lbs

Thomas Whalan is an Australian water polo player. 32 years old. He looks amazing compared to most the 32 year olds I know!

Alison Conte Cerutti is a beach volleyball player from Vitória, Espírito Santo, Brazil. Along with Emanuel Rego he won the Swatch FIVB World Tour Prague in 2011. Age 25, 243 lbs. 6'8", tattoo this is my kinda ginja (he's got a little bit of red tint in that hair)! and I bet he has a very sexy accent... oh lala

Marcel Nguyen is a German gymnast. He competed at the 2012 Summer Olympics in the Men's artistic team all-around, floor and parallel bars. He is 24 years old and just so adorable!! It also helps that he is a German athlete.. come on I have to root for my ancestor's homeland sometimes!

Whoo there are so many hot men in the Olympics it's hard to just choose a few!! I think I'll stop here before my blood pressure rises even more ;)

Have a great and sexy hump day!!



Hump Day Hotties: Olympic Edition

The olympics are such a glorious time!!

Jacob Dalton: Gymnastics

Ryan Lochte: Swimming

Matt Anderson : Volleyball